Too busy living it!

Time flies when life is wonderful! Wonderful doesn't mean easy but it does mean happy and amazing! A month has passed since I went back to work! T has started nursery and although juggling shift work and child care and guilt isn't easy, we both seem to be enjoying it! I certainly am loving adult convo, and by adult I mean juvenile, sarky and filthy! Giggling till I cry at work has brought me physiologically back to my usual chilled state. I miss T more than I could imagine when working but it's good knowing he's happy and learning! Plus it can't be healthy for either of us to be 24/7 in each other's company!
My year of adoption leave was my best year ever but moving from new mummy to working mummy makes it more real somehow. We've entered the norm!
So why is my blog getting attention tonight? Well this time last year I was a nearly mummy! I was counting the minutes nervously! I hadn't met my son. He felt like my son but I'd only ever seen photos. A year ago tomorrow my life changed in the most amazing way! And a year on how different we are! No longer is there a baby with minimal hair but a curly haired little strong willed inquisitive boy! Who every day makes me proud and thankful and who my heart loves even more.
I doubt anyone will read this but should you stumble across it in a dark time then please carry on because dreams do come true and if the journey is hard and testing sad and weary making then the end of the journey will be spectacular!

I can't believe still what a perfect fit my beautiful boy is! He is/was my destiny! I was laughing at him  tonight as he has his bath (trying to eat bubbles) and suddenly I thought this boy is almost twice the size he was a year ago, and it's too fast! Can I slow down life? A couple more months and he'll be two!

I say it's a year but I feel like he's been part of my life forever, how is it only a year? Next week is naming ceremony! Celebrate a year since moving in and the adoption!