Panel time

Yesterday I came home from work and my panel details had arrived in the post! Such excitement. 11:45 for panel, same panel as I had for approval panel. It all feels so right I can't help get excited. I know there are lots of what ifs but excitement, like waiting for the best christmas ever, is all I feel.
That and emotion. I cried when I read my panel details. Sometimes being so near my dreams feels like I'm dreaming.
Today is life appreciation day.
The only sad thing in my life is that my old girl cat has disappeared. She has looked frail the last few weeks but looked happy. She's 14 and I feel she's taken herself off to die quietly. It sounds daft but I feel she knows what's happening and doesn't want to add to my emotional burden. I'm just sad that my little boy won't meet her.
14 years with the most sweetest, sometimes crotchety, feminist, fluffy, ability to sleep on freshly cleaned black clothing, furry friend that was Retsina. Sweet dreams Retsy, I love you and will miss you xxxxx